"a couple that smiles together, stays together"

Sometimes life can just be so shitty... I've upset her, made her cry and worst of all, said words that I don't mean to... only to realise at the end of the day, it only made us more and more distant.

What's the point? What's wrong with me? What's all in my mind is that I kept thinking that things aren't going smoothly, no matter how much I've worked and it's never enough. Never.

What if I'm jobless... what will happen? I don't dare to say... cus in the end, I'll still be feeling lousy. I hate it. What's wrong... Can't things just be right for once?

I don't know how to face her from now on... a broken and upset heart is what I see on her face...

In short, I'm just useless and at times, I wish my existence is not recognised at all.

I'm really really sorry...

posted by Zhen @ 5:18 PM